Thursday, July 9, 2009

Out

I pretty much see fencing as being over for me. At least for the foreseeable future.

I am trapped in a job out of town. I am not sure how long I will be able to hold on to the job. It is god awful and I do not feel qualified to do it in many respects. Still I must try to hang on to it as long as I can , as the alternative of being unemployed with the economy as it is, leaves me little choice.

Should I become unemployed, there would be no money to devote to fencing.

I am pretty much screwed.

I still read everything I can about fencing on line. I check on the people I know and learn what I can. However, that makes me sad. Living without something you love is a lot like living without someone you love.

There are a lot of depressing things going on in my life at the moment. A friend suggested that I blog about them. (Or that I continue to blog as an outlet.)

I don't think I want to bare my soul on-line, but I may give this some thought in other regards.

I so miss people from my fencing life. It is impossible to separate that love from the love of the sport.