Epee, for some reason, was disappointing. I have a problem with my forward check. Cam showed me and I got it right in the end, though this morning I know I cannot do it. I have forgotten. I will try to get Woody to show me again on Monday. I was embarrassed to have to be shown this in front of the class. This is something I should have mastered in the second month of fencing. I do not ever use it, hence I have forgotten it. I use a reverse check once in a while. There was something wrong with my lunge, I did our jump rope drill like a spas. ( I was corrected on that by a person who has not been fencing a year.) I was corrected for grunting (making a loud noise) before a touch. I was at the same class with Maestro Beguinet and what I heard was different. Screaming as a distraction is not legal. making my "Rambo Grunt" is not a violation...I think. I need to review the rules. Woody talked to me about my hand movement and jerky footwork when I am about to attack. I was unaware of it.
I was in a pool of six and I won every bout, even though I know I did not fence well.
There is a problem with me....I think. I rarely take criticism well. I know this and I know that I am stupid for this fault. The fact remains that it is true. So...in my epee class....was this coaching I got...or criticism? Was I being coached or picked on? Is coaching not in essence a critique? Why is it that sometimes I am grateful for it and other times I want to "bow up?"
I need to think on this a bit and try and put my mind in the place it should be. This post is a sad commentary on me.
I need to get to foil early Monday, and see if I repaired my weapons correctly. I doubt it.